It’s just that a really close friend of mind just broke up with her boyfriend and it’s the same week as her exams. Not a good timing. All want to do this moment is to run to her, hug her, comfort her. sing her songs (though I’m not good at it), make jokes or anything that would lighten her heavy feelings at the moment. But it is impossible to do at my condition. Why? It’s because we are in different parts of the world, literally. I’m here in the Philippines having a boring vacation while she is in Sweden and minding her own life. Messages through facebook and emails aren’t just enough. There are things much easier to carry when you have a friend by your side.

I back-read some of my posts when I was quite young here in tumblr. Most things, especially text posts, made me remember what I have done and what happened in the past which I likely forgot now. I read random text posts with grammatical errors that I didn’t bother to edit and some are typographical. That’s kind of funny.

But as I read further, I got into deeper part. I read my experiences with my past relationships that ended up being shits. I remember being bitter, so much emotional that I don’t want to live anymore. I realize I am being stupid when I fall in love and become possessive. Oh God, what’s into me?!? I rant. I preach myself into moving on which, basically, I do not follow. It’s just that I keep repeating same mistakes over and over again. When will I learn? This I do not know of.

That title above is from Ed Sheeran’s U.N.I. (try listening to it.) God made another one of me to love you better than I ever will — a message to those people whom I left and left me. My love is not enough for them or maybe just wasn’t right. I’ll have to forge my own path of love (but this is in the future, not now). I have to grow and learn.

And as I read more and more, my friends always — always are by my side and never left me, in my ups and my downs. They are supportive. These friends I call, they are just few but I let myself trust them. ♥

I don’t usually write long posts. But when I do, I don’t know what things I have already written.

I think I’m starting to fall in love with Ed Sheeran’s songs. I keep playing and playing them both old and new (well, not at the same time of course). His songs really amaze me. Ed Sheeran. ♥